My very own promposal (22/9/2014, Monday)

I'll keep the person as Unknown :) 

He told me the day before about giving me cupcakes, well I said okay. The next day, he came to me this morning around 7++ and wanted to pass me them but I was kinda like in a rush to open the library door for the juniors to be on duty. The same thing happened at 8++ when they wasn't any teacher in my class but I was talking non stop with my seat mate, yen ling 😅 anddddd I didn't realise that anything was wrong. And again, he came over during recess but againnnnn I was busy arguing with teacher about my exam papers hehhh. 

When everything was settled, I sat down. He sat beside me. He brought me out of class. I saw my classmate, Ryan, was holding a box. Ryan passed the box to him and I thought it was just an ordinary box. Until I saw the content. I managed to see the word "prom" only but I knew what he meant. I stunt there for quite long. I couldn't believe it at all. I didn't expect anything like this to happen to me. I couldn't give him an answer on the spot, I told him I would tell after school.

Pain demands to be felt.

Quoted from "the fault in our stars" by John Green.

I can't say I've been through a lot, nor I can say I've been through little. I felt pain in life in different aspects, I could never explained what does pain mean to me, until the book stated was published. 

Everyone experienced all kind of pains. The pain of losing our love ones, the pain of surviving cancer, the pain of lost, everything...... Well, it demands to be felt, that's the thing about pain. 

I had a thought in my mind after reading this book. Would like to share though. 

What would you do if you have a friend that's suffering from cancer? Or even one of your family member? (Which is probably worse) We can never ever understand how they feel. They are emotionally, physically and mentally tortured by a grenade. They feel the pain which we don't. They always stay strong. They are different in a way. But they are always strong. They fight for their lives. They are still staying strong.

We often say we will be there for them. We often give them moral support. We often feel sad about their condition. Think about this, will these help much? I'm not saying these actions are wrong, but pain demands to be felt.

The best thing we can do is simply just be there and lend them ourselves. Our shoulder, our ears, our time, our mind. 

It won't make their pain vanish in thin air, well at least it minimise the pain felt. Still that phrase, "pain demands to be felt". 

Trust.

Just wanna share this out. This was sent by my best friend when I was lost.

A lot of us spend our time stuck in regret, wishing our lives had turned out differently, and beating ourselves up for the decisions that have led us to this place. We feel cheated out of a life that could have been something better. We feel angry and sad and disappointed. And most of all, we feel stuck.

In these moments, it’s easy to focus on all of the things that have gone wrong. It’s easy to focus on the loss and the heartbreak and the pain, but it’s also important to remember all of the things that have gone right. It’s important to remember all of the positive experiences and friendships and growth and laughter you've gained — things you would have never taken part in, lessons you would have never learned, and people you would have never met had you not veered off the desired path. 

The truth is that every time you thought you were missing out on something important, you were given the opportunity to experience something valuable in its own right. Every time life’s obstacles rejected you from something good, you were being redirected to something, or someone, equally wonderful. You may not have ended up where you intended to go, but trust, for once, that you have ended up where you need to be. Trust that you are in the right place at the right time. Trust that every experience has something to offer you. Trust that something that feels like a curse in the moment can blossom into a blessing. Trust that your life is enough. Trust that you are enough.

The story of life. (Appreciate)

From what I learned this year. I made it into this instead of a story line.

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.

And sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, and unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower, or heart.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness, and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. It would be safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience help to create who you become. Even the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones. If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love and how to open your heart and eyes to things.

Make every day count!!! Appreciate every moment and take from those moments everything that you possibly can for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people that you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free, and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don’t believe in yourself, it will be hard for others to believe in you. You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life then go out and live it with absolutely no regrets.